in my very own realm

as time goes by

2009-10-03T21:56:00.006+08:00

as time goes by
somethings just go dry
every moment we used to have with some people
fades, changes, gone

we know nothings stays the same
but never thought how things can be as gone as fast as it came
we may not know if it did end
or perhaps, it may have just started

just as how chocolates melt
just as how flowers losses its scent
and how everyone grows old
everything moves as to make every story unfold

change

2008-03-22T12:20:00.002+08:00

give me a chance to change

and i will be as you want me to be

and i will become the one you always wanted

and i will change for you

confused

2007-08-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to say

i dont know what i should feel

i dont know if im still ryt or what i just believe in isnt real

i dont know if everythings made up

i dont know if im things are just what it seems or is it so messed up

i dont know if i lyk you

i dont know if i really want to be with you

i dont know if my smiles are so true or is it jus for me not to go so blue

i really dont know myself anymore,, so confused,, so unreliable...

i really dont know what to do,, im so tired to be such a fool,,

though i know that i have lots whom i really fool......

including myself........

i want

2007-07-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

i want to be there whenever you are laughing
i want to share the same laughter with you
i want to make you happy all the time
i want to joke around and see your beautiful smile...

i want to be there for you whenever youre crying
i want to hold your hands and never let it go
i want to catch every tear drop and wipe your face clean
i want to hug you and perhaps kiss away the pain...

i want to catch you everytime you are falling
i want to make sure that you're always fine
i want to listen when you need someone
i want to be that someone you needed all the time...

under the same star

2007-06-13T20:32:00.001+08:00

i take my time alone

recalling the times, the good old times

leaving away behind the bitter ones

i walk my self out the door

and the beautiful night took my sight

it was wonderful and really bright

there it is the moon that shed some light

and there i stand

watching every star fall pass by

counting every star that wanders around the sky

and then i wonder how i wish we were doing the same

we look at them together

we stare at exaclty the same star that shines for both of us

as if the star relays to us a message that we shouldnt be apart

as if the star wants us to share a bench together as we look at it forever

but forever is such a very long time

and the star will soon go dim

and the star will soon move away

a sign that no dreams last so long

yet no matter

to you i want to hold on so much

i dont want to let you go

i dont want us to be separated anymore

under the same star...

it really has been a while

2007-06-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

it really has been a while since we had a talk

it really has been a while since you shared alot

and how i really miss those times when you do seem to be so close

so close to me that i have your trust

and you have mine

it really has been a while since i last heard your voice

it really has been a while since i think of those words

and how i really miss those times when everything you say seemed to be like a song

a beautiful song though without a tune

it really has been a while since i last spend my time with you

it really has been a while since we take a simple time together

and how i really miss those times when i ask for you not to leave me behind

stay close, wait, lets go here.. and there.. and what else...

i guess.. it really has been a while.......

and time did pass us by..

~mon03

as i held you so tight

2007-05-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

as i lay behind your back
i took my breath right behind you
as i embrace you so tight
as i show how much i want to be with you

i held you in your arms
clenched as if theres no tomorrow
wrapped around you as if forever
and i know that you know
that never did i ever want to let go

and i can smell you, your scent
the same perfume you always wear
the same perfume that makes me define you
the same perfume along with the same person i always wanted

and i can hear it, your heart beat
and i can hear everysingle word you say
deep down from inside you
because i can hear it upclose
because i can hear it so clearly

and you know i want to stop time
or let this be just forever....

and this doesnt seem to bother you at all
neither you flinch as i embrace you
neither do seem to be troubled

and i know your used to this
because your the only one whose used to how i may be...

~wow. cnu kaya to! hahaha...

ice water

2007-05-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

as you chase me all around the corners of our room,
i recall all the gud memories we've had together
as if theres no end to this great laughter
as if i wanna run all along with you forever

but then i stopped, think twice and look around
i try to look deep within our friendship for maybe theres more
for you maybe more than just a friend
for you maybe the one i really need to mend my heart so sore

and you caught me in the hand and say "taya"
and you did, you did caught ryt through the heart
and my world seemed to stop, took a pause as you take a deep breath
and i wait for your next words, the words i long from you as you held my hand

and then...

"VIVA! hahaha! talo kay joan!"

~dexter at joowan. physics lab 130. naglalaro ng ice water.
~dinub ko lang c joo. hahaha.. pero biro biro lang

speechless

2007-05-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

ive seen you once
no, maybe twice
and perhaps more than twice

you were the one who talk to me first
and i smiled back, speechless..

you look to me once, eye to eye
and i smiled back, speechless..

you smiled to me most of the time
and so i smiled back, once again...
speechless...

we were just a few feet apart
but never did we say a word at each other anymore
we just smile and remain speechless...

hidden

2007-05-15T20:27:00.001+08:00

i refuse to let you see me
how truly different i may be
how unlikely things for us could possibly be
how it seems so far to what used to be

i dont want you to know
how far this feeling could show
how hard it is for me to let it go

so i remain invisible
so i stay behind every curtain and under every cloak
and so i lurk nowhere else but the shadows
and i let it be, i just let me be
hidden...

i live in a glass

2007-05-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

my life, my world.
every piece of me, like a glass shattered

as if something hit it so hard, it got all broken
and its pieces continue to fall
and its pieces continue to wound my all

its scatters so fast, this glass is so vast
it left me without anything
anything that i could use to mend my suffering
it left me with nothing else but illusions

and its illusions continue to fool me
and its illusions doesnt seem to have a remedy
and all of its illusions always seemed to be true

and the glass continues to put a reflection, a mere illusion
and the glass continues to wound me without hesitation
and the glass continues to scatter...
leave me be.. continuously..

~mon03

a world full of inspirations

2007-05-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

i may have a world full of inspirations. friends. family. everyone who seems to be there for me.

yet sometimes, its better to have combined emotions to be inspired.

joy, pain, sadness, anger, guilt, hate, love, question... it feels to be so inspiring and with a lot of things you have within yourself, you just want to explode and jot it all down.. hayy...

and my blogs are too dramatic.. hehe..

too much of the heart talk.. but now, i cant think.. just pretty satisfied and content of what seems to be happening as of now.. but sooner or later,, maybe things will change a little,,, a few things could add a few extra color..

and so i believe that i really do have a world full of inspirations. hehehe.. with few exciting stuffs and suprises that awaits us in store. hehehe..

need i choose when its clear

2007-05-07T21:08:00.000+08:00

my mind tells me not to
but my heart says i do

my mind tell me its wrong
but your name sounds to me like a song

my mind cares nothing
but my heart tells me your everything

i miss you

2007-05-06T16:54:00.000+08:00

i miss you and i mean it
i miss you and its true
i miss you, i miss you
i really really do...

ill sing to you a song

2007-05-06T11:45:00.000+08:00

tell me if you want to sleep..
ill sing to you a song
ill sing to you a lullaby
until your sound asleep
and ill watch you as go dreamin
and ill stay with you the whole evening
ill just stay and will never ever go away

tell me when ur sad..
ill sing to you a song
ill sing to you a nursery ryhme
and even put actions along with it
even if i look so silly
even if i look so stupid
ill try to cheer you up
till i have you smile again

tell me if you want to cry..
ill sing to you a song
ill sing to you the song "ill be"
to make you feel my company
and make you realize that here i am
and here ill always be

and how i wish you'd say that you love me
cause when you do, ill sing to you a song
ill sing to you the song "i do"
ill sing to you the song "grow old with you"
cause even if
"too many walls have been built in between us"
"this i promise you"
"i will always love you"..

~mon03

ill wait forever

2007-05-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

i wanted to wait for you.. no matter how long..
i wanted to be with you.. though you are far...
i wanted to see you.. and how i really wish i could..

my every moment with you

2007-05-05T20:44:00.000+08:00

everytime im with you
i want to stop time
i want to make it last forever
i want every moment to be perfect

everytime i speak to you
i dont want to lose any words
i want to share a lot about me
i want to hear more about you
and more about how you feel about me.

everytime i see you
i dont want to miss a glimpse
i dont want to close my eyes
i just want to see you so perfectly

everymoment i have with you
is a moment i wish to cherish for the rest of my life
for those moments, i feel so care free
for those moments, i cant seem to worry
for in those moments, i have you with me....

~mon03

the hurt behind a smile

2007-05-05T07:01:00.000+08:00

i cared
i was hurt
i tuk risks
i failed
i sacrificed
i lost
i hoped
i gained nothing
yet,
i kept loving...

til every piece of me

was

broken....

marameng bagay sa aking paligid.

2007-05-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

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